I'm still quite inexperienced when it comes to blogging, especially about God. With all my own personal struggles with faith, I sometimes still find myself asking questions, having doubts in the back of my mind, and wondering how to truly tune in to God at the highest level possible. It amazes me that even though all I have to do is look back on some things that have taken place in my life, and I can point out numerous time I believe Jesus was at work for me, even before I was saved. I think my own personal testimony is important to write about, some may call these things coincidences, luck, but I my friends, call it fate. It speaks directly to the way Jesus walks with us, even today.
The first incident was my birth. The doctors called it a miracle in it's own. I was born by C-Section, three months early, and weighed only 2.5 lbs. In the first months of my life I faced many difficulties, not only a disastrous entrance into the world, but also bronchities, pneuomonia, and a collapsed lung. I was told a high percentage of babies facing these conditions would not have survived. Not only did I survive, but I grew up perfectly normal, or so I think, haha. I faced no disabilities, defections, nor side effects from my birth. I believe God had an angel on my shoulder that day, and enabled me to live so I could one day figure it all out on my own, and ultimately come to live my life through Jesus.
The second happened just last year, around Christmas time, December 19th if I recall correctly. I was involved in a car accident that could have almost been fatal, given the conditions. My friend dozed off at the wheel in wintry conditions, going 55 miles per hour. We hit a ditch, and the car rolled several times, landing on the other side of the road. I found myself standing straight up in a field about 30 feet from the car. I had been ejected through the back door window, as was my other friend with me. Miraculously, I was barely scratched, my friend in the back with me suffered a few broken bones, and the two other who were wearing their seatbelts weren't hurt at all. I find it hard to believe that being thrown through a window thirty feet, and not being hurt at all, was the work of Jesus. He was looking out for me on that night, as he was when I was born. This incident really made me reflect on my life, and if I had been seriously hurt, or killed, what would be my legacy? It was at this point that I decided to welcome Jesus into my heart, and thank him for giving me a second chance to do things right. Getting to the point of always doing things right is a process, as is building your relationship with Jesus, but I am so thankful that I am here today and able to do what I am doing.
Another incident took place a few years ago, and I believe I encountered some sort of evil spirit, or presence. I was living in Belmont, by myself at the time. Before going to sleep is when I tend to think a lot, my mind does what it wants. That night I found myself, for some reason, thinking about demons, if they existed, and what it would be like to have to face one. Keep in mind I was not saved at this time, and God was somewhat of an afterthough for me, even though I had been raised Catholic, I wasn't sure what I believed. After having these thoughts, I felt the most intense feeling of wrong. I felt like there was something in the room with me, and it was not a nice something. It was a despairing feeling of evil, and I felt helpless. I believe the thoughts I was having enabled this spirit, or presence, to enter the room. Instead of praying, I turned on all the lights, closed my eyes, and eventually fell asleep. I still remember this today, and it shows that if you enable evil, it will take that chance to try to enter into you. Luckily nothing further took place, but that feeling is something I will never forget.
I firmly believe in the power of prayer. I find it not to be coincidental that when I got serious about my relationship with Jesus through prayer, reading the Word, and just trying to do the right thing all the time, is when my life began to turn for the better, in almost every aspect.
Think of all the miracles Jesus performed. The ones that stand out, to me, are his healing miracles, and these are miracles that he still performs today. Pastor Sassano recently told us about a family member of his. She has a brain tumor, and at one point the situation seemed hopeless. Pastor prayed and prayed for her, even in the face of the unsaved family members almost mocking the act. Her most recent checkup revealed the tumor had shrank, to the amazement of the doctors, and she is doing much better. I personally believe Jesus heals sickness, hearts, and minds. There are countless testimonies I have read that prove this to be true. Healing through heartfelt prayer does more than any hospital can. I look at myself, and the way Jesus has helped change my heart, my mind, and he is leading me down a path I never thought possible. I look at the healing miracle he performed in Pastor's family. Both are perfect examples of the power of prayer.
I always like to re-iterate that I am not perfect, nobody is. I can only hope my words might reach someone, and inspire them to open up to Jesus. I have my own reasons, as you have read, why I believe Jesus will do great work in your life if you ask him to. It is a difficult process in the face of struggle, but in the end you just have to believe, as hard as it may be sometimes. Give your heart to Jesus, and he will change it. Give your mind to him, and he will transform it.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths." (Proverbs 3:5-6)
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