Come Again.

I'm praying you bless me, cause Lord I miss you. It's time for you to come again. Here I go again. 2012.

What's up everyone? Must say I did miss my folks. It's been 5 months and some change since the most important person in my life decided I was no longer worth using and made my existence feel smaller than a grain of sand. If you've been through it, you know it's not an easy thing to deal with. I don't think I'm even completely over it.

It took so long for my inspiration to return I was starting to doubt it ever would. My once strong faith was burned to ashes. And through all of that, I never once blamed God for what was happening. Even when I hit rock bottom and wanted someone to blame, I didn't blame God. He gives, and he takes away. It's the taking away that hurts most. Then I remembered that I've always said when things are the absolute worst, if you don't give up, good things will happen.

I woke up this morning with an overwhelming urge to be positive and take positive action to not only better myself, but everyone around me. It seems like some of the prayers I have been saying to just make it through hard times are starting to be answered, I can feel it in my attitude and heart. I knew Jesus didn't leave me, but man did I feel alone for quite some time. And once again, if you've ever felt that way, it sure isn't easy.

But here's to a new start for 2012. I'm here to tell you things aren't always going to be perfect, but slowly and surely things get better. Just keep your faith. My faith now rests in whatever reward He has planned for me after everything I've been put through. There has to be a point to it all, and I know something good is right around the corner. Just have to keep the faith.

Amen.